I just realized that I fell in love with a girl who looked Alanis Morrisette around the same time that the video for “Hands Clean” video debuted. It seems crazy to write it so plainly, because if you know me it becomes painfully clear about whom I’m writing. And I’m left wondering if I can ever write about any of the people I know in any real way.

Not by using the truth, I think. Perhaps I need to turn to fiction for the proper format.

Morrissette came back to the same topic but with a completely different sound. It is okay to talk about the same thing multiple times in various ways, she is telling me. Just do it, buddy.

The most sacred force in the world is love. I am obsessed with it. When I speak of community, I mean the love that exists amongst a group of people. The energy they possess. Falling in love for the first time was so confusing that I don’t think I realized I was in love. Okay – perhaps I am applying the word ‘love’ haphazardly. But then again, I’d rather be too liberal with my love than tight-hearted.

I am going to write more often until I work my way out of the doldrums and nightmares and reach a better place. See you along the way.

-Paul